Hmm,
I haven't been here for awhile have I?
Wish
I could tell you I was on an exotic vacation. Even on a safari. I
wasn't.
Life
was just routine and maybe even stuck in a rut.
In
July when I last posted I was struggling. I was so burned out that it
was a loosing battle to when trying to write. I was fighting the
weather, fighting weeds in the garden and was honestly becoming very
depressed with a rough turn my life had taken.
A
huge business deal was taking much, much longer than I was ready for.
Things were breaking down and the cash flow was way down. Just as in
the past I was alone and didn't even have anyone to discuss the
disgust with. No one to help take my mind off of bothersome things.
The
dogs just are not into profound conversation. Heck, the only time
they listen is when I mention food...
When
I wasn't busy working I'd try to write. Well all that happened was
senseless thoughts chasing each other all over. I couldn't compose an
entire paragraph and stay on a subject. I was a mess.
I'd
try to write about one thing and ten other things would be eating at
my goofy mind.
Weeds,
rain, broken down tractor, broken down me, more rain, more weeds,
crops not getting enough sun, crops getting too much rain, lawn
needing mowing but it's raining again, more equipment needing more
repair, the house needing repairs and on and on...
Top
that off with me becoming the full time babysitter for my two
youngest grandchildren.
Now
let me tell you, when you get older you begin to realize just how
energetic kids are. Just how much they need fed. Just how hard it is
to keep them busy so they don't find trouble to get into. Heck, I
have enough trouble keeping me out of trouble.
As
for food, I eat when I get darned good and hungry. I have no set
schedule for meals. Quite often I'm busy enough that evening comes
and I realize I haven't eaten all day. Not that missing a few meals
hurts me at all...
Well
that eating schedule does not work with growing children.
Energy?
Well lets just say this guy is in a perpetual energy crisis.
Somewhere around noon I just fall into trying to keep one foot in
front of the other so I don't fall down and become Rip Van Winkle.
The
garden did well in spite of the rain and the war of the weeds. The
crops did well. Finally the business deal went through! There's still
a lot of work to catch up on before the winter gets too bad, but
things are getting back to their abnormal normal.
I've
been able to slow down, calm down and take a breath.
I'll
try to get back to my normal blogging. It still may be hit and miss
for awhile, but I am on my way back.
One
thing that never left me during this time of angst is my continuous
daily search for smiles. I even managed to laugh at the predicaments
I was in.
I
certainly hope all of my wonderful followers were able to keep
finding their smiles over the past several months.
And
to the few who cared enough to e-mail me, Thank You and Bless You
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