Hmm,
what's for dinner?
That
question seems to cross my mind every morning lately when I'm having
my coffee and cookies.
Sure
would be nice if someone else would make that decision for a
change...
But
oh well, such is life and until someone buys me a restaurant I guess
I'll have to do my own cooking.
SOMEONE
PLEASE! Buy me a restaurant or a diner!
After
having a week to calm down from the holidays I'm finally getting
unwound. Even had a day with some sunshine to take a hike through the
snow and allow my mind to wonder and clear.
I
cant say I'm feeling happy. Can't say I'm feeling sad. Can't say I'm
feeling hopeful and I can't say I'm feeling hopeless. I guess I'm
feeling more of a tranquility
with a haze of empty.
Started
out last year with a pretty bad health issue which took me out and
left me bedridden for about two weeks. Another two weeks getting my
feet back under me.
Also
early last year I was pillaged by a soft voice of hope. When that
fell through I felt used up and useless.
Then
having spent so much busy time and time away from home I had left my
garden alone and by the time I got back to it, it was a super weed
patch.
By
the time I finally got it cleaned up I had lost about half of my
tomatoes and only had six bell peppers left. The salad fixens never
did amount to much. One cucumber plant that did very well managed to
survived.
The
entire second half of the year was one long boring struggle.
As
I was wading through the knee deep snow my mind, as usual, was busy
wondering and pondering.
I
recalled the words of Martin Luther King Jr.
“The
ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of
comfort, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.”
Also
knowing it's the journey itself that matters. That the desired goal
we want might not always be ours to have. Yet if during the journey
we discover and learn the positive things, even learn from the
negative things.
We
grow as individuals and that's what makes the journey worthwhile.
Then
too after being around long enough I also have seen that some
will deny their fate. Some will justify their fate.
Some
others will do anything they can to alter their fate.
That
left me with the question. Which one do I want to be?
I'm
aware that only I can decide that answer or change it. That is my
fate.
The
person I was yesterday is dead and gone. The person I am today will
be gone tomorrow. Each day is a chance to be a new and better being!
Each
day we choose to leave the yesterdays behind or to let them drag us
down or even stop us.
Some
people make their world and their life to difficult for theirselves
to live in.
I
do not ever again want to become one of those people.
So
I'll take what I've learned from the past year and continue on my
journey with contentment and smiles. I'll use what I've learned to
attempt to help others who I find in need and do my best to bring a
smile to their faces.
It
will soon be time and again I will plant a garden. Hopefully I will
be here and have the time to devote to keep after the weeds. But
should I again get to busy to care for it properly because of trying
to help someone with something I will not look on it as a loss.
I
will just be thankful that I have the opportunity to even have a
garden and enjoy whatever bounty I receive from it.
Heck,
even with the weeds taking over my life I always find something to
smile about as I pluck them out one by one.
So
if I can do it, so can you.
Even
if your day, week or year is full of weeds and problems you too can
take a few moments here and there to smile and share that smile.
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